Final entry...

You truly do not care about me...

After everything I have done for you, all the things that I would do for you...

I don't know what to think anymore. All of our problems started 2 weeks and a day ago. But wait, lets go back to the very beginning shall we?

So right now I was thinking back on everything, and I wanted to see how you were feeling. So I started reading your old blogs. BTW your post on my bday made me laugh, yea, I'm the genuine asshole. I remember that day. A lot of people texted me and I didn't reply back. I was thinking about replying back to you, but you weren't special to me back then. Then we started talking again. It was nice. I was asked to be in the debut, first i said no, i was too busy. We started talking more, hungout a couple of times. I was asked again, i was gonna be your partner, i said yes. I wasnt joking when i said i was too busy, but i made it work for you. Summer really was amazing. But i was right all along. "Starts with an H, rhymes with corny." Thats all you were. I dont know if you meant it when you said you liked me, and that sucks, because i really dont know if you were being serious. "Summerlove." Thats just great, you had your doubts from the very beginning. Honestly, i really did believe that you were only keeping me around for the debut. You even told me they said to you.. "dont do anything bad to him until after the debut..." Awesome.. well the debut is over and things are falling apart. Interesting.
Lately all these songs your singing and tweeting... im not stupid. Dont tell me it means nothing. I know you better than that. I know my friends too. They tweet it, oh what a coincidence. whatever. I already knew you lied. I kept asking you about it because i cared, but you saw it as annoying, when at first you thought i didnt care because i wasnt asking you about it... "You know. We already act like it, so we dont even need the label." Then a couple days later... "Please stop acting like my boyfriend." Thats like asking me to stop liking you.. i guess thats what you really want. Thats it. You had your fun. It was fun. Idk whats gonna happen. Whatever. I try to open up to you because you wanted me too, but you fall asleep on me. You do not care. See what I mean!? Nobody wants to hear that shit. Nobody cares. Nobody definitely doesn't care.
You said you wanted a guy that can keep you on check and keep you in line.. wtf you dont want that! I tried to be that guy, but i also didnt want to keep you from doing anything you wanted to do. But all you did was tweet songs like "You really need to close your mouth cuz you aint gon tie me down." Whatever. I warned you about boy. You didnt consider my feelings. And you ended up getting hurt again. Blahhhh. And just for your information... I was actually tearing up...

Oh, but you don't care.

Have fun being independent. You can take care of yourself. You dont need me anymore. Dont do anything crazy. Theres nothing else i can do.

Im not mad.. i dont hate you.
You have been through so much. You are still going through a lot.
I was there for you back then, i was there for you now, i am still here for you.
Were both mature adults somewhat.
Now that I have gotten all this out of the way... moving on! Thanks for the memories tho. It was fun. =]
Don't lose respect for yourself.
Please take care.

"frosted FLAKE's"

I absolutely hate that. Especially when it is me who flaked. Ofcourse everyone doesn't like a flaker, they say they are gonna do something with you, but they end up being a no show. It is pretty irritating, but i can not stand it when the person who flaked is me. I like to be the kind of person who someone can count on... you can always trust me for anything. Whether its meeting up somewhere, or a simple wake up call.

"Could it be I'm thinking too much..."

Blahhhh. I really do not know what else to say. That's it for now. Today really was wow... wtf. Time to rest, tomorrow will be a better day. Just forget any of this ever happened.

catchin up...

okay so here's what you missed in the past couple of days since i haven't been blogging.

I work at Pacific Theaters at the Americana at Brand. I really like working there because of the people and what I do. I'm always working at night. Sometimes I get off work as late/early as 3 in the morning (Midnight showings). I am a projectionist which means I am mostly up in the booth starting the movies for you. Without me, they would probably have a mental breakdown or something.




Jaaystarrs house is one of the most chill spots ever. Barbecues, billiards, ping pong, hookah, xbox, wii, farmville, and one big ass dog. It's really fun just going there and chillin. Fun times!

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INTENSE!!!!

So as I have already told you, I am very competitive, escpecially if I am playing against imxedward. That sissy thinks hes so good at everything, when really hes just all talk.

Extreme bowling at Jewel City. It wasn't even a competition with him. My first 2 throws were strikes, yeah, you better believe it. He didn't even break 100 the first game, and i almost doubled his score the 2nd game. So what if you got a damn Turkey!?!?

Who needs a turkey with a score like 183!?!





Ok I will admit I am not that good at Call of Duty. But I don't really care! Freakin nerd! Get a life! Haha but wtf how are you so good at this game, the only time I can beat him is if we have knife fights, cause I think he cheats somehow. I shoot a million times and just make a complete outline of his body, while he shoots me once right in the face and I die. What the hell man!?

But most importantly... dun dun duuuuunnn.

Beer Pong
Talk so much crap about how good you are, and that you are undefeated, well guess what not against me! I had the first game jitters and so I didn't do well, but lebron james was able to turn it up and start a little comeback! But wasn't able to finish, so Kobe over here got the first W. This is the playoffs baby! Best of 7! Game 2, switch courts. Lebron was on fire and smashed on Kobe. Better luck next time. Game 3, to be determined...

Then there is debut practice. I got 2. First one we have a little over a month left. I know that I got the dance down, but my partner is struggling a little, and by a little I mean a lot. Originally, I was going to be partnered up with this other person, but because of her original partner being kinda small around the arms, they had to switch my partner because of that. Oh well, its not about me its about the debutante. Hopefully my partner catches on.
However! Debut number 2 I am very excited to be in. I got my 2 main homies in that one, the dance is pretty fun, and I couldn't ask for a better partner. I am excited for both debuts, they are pretty fun and all, but don't expect to see me in another one.

Well that should do it for now, haven't blogged in a while so I hope this makes up for it.
Oh! One more thing before I forget, I have to figure out this blogtracker thing. I wonder if there are people out there reading this, hm. Well I guess I'll find out!!

I feel like...

I've just seen the sun for the first time, you make my life bright cuz you shine
It's me and you baby, it's our time. I'm living my dream, girl cuz you mine
You got me skippin down the street, and singing love songs all out of key
I didn't smoke nothin, but I feel so high, and I know why.

It literally took me forever to think of what to write. So there I was, laying down on my bed. I was just pondering, thinking back on the day, which was amazing by the way. So as I was lying awake, I suddenly thought, I feel like... and then that song popped into my head, and then I don't know I guess I got excited and thought I should put that. >.<

That one lyric that is italicized is my favorite lyric. I don't know I just really like it! It makes me giggle every time I hear it, and sometimes I do that so I know what they are talking about, Just kidding... kinda. That's how I feel like right now though. I feel like later today, as I am walking down the street and just saying Hi to everyone! Like give hugs to all the girl I pass by, and every

guy that passes me give them a high five. I am just so happy right now! =]

Sorority Row

That was one freaky movie! All those girls were so scandalous!
First there was this one girl and they all called her chuggs. Probably because she drank so effing much! And she was such a slut oh my goodness!
Then there was the main bizznatch. The leader and evil genius of the group.
The one girl that actually had some sense was one of the people to survive. Which was good! She kicked ass!
Last but not least, Jamie effing Chung. The cutest Theta Pi! WTF was she doing with a douchebag like him, oh well it was just a movie... I guess.

They can be like The Ashleys from the T.V. show "Recess."
Scandalous!!

Well that's it, no design or anything. I am just too tired. Took an hour to write this.

Goodnight!!

Ugh...

alksdjfaj... I was going to write something but after reading it all, why put all that? It's just making things complicated. So as I always like to do.. I just try not to make a big deal out of it. I don't really like talking about wtf is wrong because I like to be a person who is always kidding around and just wants to have fun. Like one of the greatest modern songs by Jason Mraz says, "Theres no need to complicate our time is short..." I am saying that it is one of the best songs out there because of its success. It has been on the list of top 100 songs for like a really long time now and I saw this article on yahoo that says it broke the record. So yea!! IDK that's just me. Just a random thought that I was thinking about. Usually when i start to blog, I go in with absolutely nothing to say. I get bored too so I like to try do cool stuff like this but anyway, seriously tho,

I have no idea what to write. I somehow think of something, and then go from there. I will
tell you one thing, it's so annoying when I am trying to blog but my friend keeps instant So I
messaging me on myspace! It's my bestfriend and shes so energetic and hyper that saw A.J.
she has to reply in a couple seconds, and it has to be sent in clumps, instead of Rafael at the
just one big package. Yeknow how when you get an IM on myspace a little Americana right?
sound happens and its like, bing. Well it does that and as I write this Oh by the way it is all
all I hear is, BingBingBingBing!! I just want to tell her to leave me thanks to me we saw him
alone for just 5 seconds! But I sorta don't want her to see that there because it was my idea
I have a blog so yea. Oh yea and don't you just love when to go to the Americana in the first
people get excited about seeing someone or something place. Ok yeah my friend did want to
that when they are talking to their friends they don't go to Urban which was where he was at
realize what they are saying and so they tell them but hey guess what? There is no Urban w/o
what they really feel about stuff, like bonding the freaking Americana! Yea, that's right. So
that someone thought was going just fine yea, "Your Welcome." So here we are, me and my
but they think that it was just boring so friend looking for a nice flannel for me, when all of
thank goodness that the exciting thing a sudden my friend calls out his name and I am just
happened or else they just wouldn't like what the? She got so excited to see him and she even
know how they could go on the rest got to take a picture with him, and another thing that I
of the day w/out that exciting realized is that I am a good picture taker! =P Okay but it was
thing happening to make actually pretty cool seeing the guy because I really like this one
their day. Like being with song by him, or well I really like the only song that I have ever
someone who you really listened to by him. He really seems like a pretty cool guy and he is
enjoy spending time really nice! He must be really patient because he gets noticed by a lot
with isn't enough. of people and he takes the time to talk to them, take pictures and what
Well at least for not. Also he made my friend really happy because she got to see him and
me it is but you that makes me happy to see her so excited with that huge amazing smile
know what of hers. Even tho she did go a little overboard, and took forever jus to get over
its cool. it but hey, it's understandable. I thought it was funny to see that happen, and it
W/E. was pretty cool to meet AJ Rafael. Even tho we didn't really talk that much because

NO ONE over here was so excited and wanted to do all the talking! But hey, it was cuuuute.

I like french fries.
Cheddar fries from Islands.
Fries from Red Robin with the seasoning.
And sweet potato fries from Spitz.

But my new favorite food.... dun dun duuunnn...
Meat quesadilla from the Taco Truck! MM!!!

( My fat ass.... =] )

You know what really grinds my gears??

Okay that's from an episode of Family Guy but yeah, You know what really grinds my gears?
When people write one or two word texts. I hate that! It's like, what the hell man! A lot of people do it, and sometimes I even do it, but mostly when I do it, its because they did it first so I try to make them see how it feels. Hopefully it works...

Another thing that really grinds my gears is when I am playing basketball, and my team starts losing, and the other team is about to win so my teammates just start giving up. That has
got to be the worst thing you can do. I mean if your losing then naturally you step
up and try harder, but no. Some people feel like they need to just stop trying.
I hate losing. I play very aggressive when I'm losing. I guess I am very
competitive. I seem to get injured a lot when playing any sport
pretty much, but basketball especially, I love the game.
That is what pushes me the most. Competition.
In sports especially. But mostly Basketball.
That wanting to be better than the other
person your against. That's what
I love about it. Sports.
For the love of
the game!

Ugh sorry I just get so flustered sometimes. But I think that's it for now. Blog you later!!

Ok so...

Day 2!! I am just going to blog everyday before I go to sleep because that is what you are supposed to do right? Blog everyday, and when you miss a couple days you leave your readers guessing what you were doing during that time that you forgot to blog. So I don't want to leave my readers left out because I know that without this daily blog for them to read every night, they would probably have a mental breakdown... just kidding.

Today...
I had school. Sat next to my friend that I am not too close with, but we will get to the point where we become good friends, we are taking a class together and we know each other so it would only be right if we became better friends. After got a little visit from no one and then had another class right after.
I met someone new! We were partners for this little group exercise. She seems nice and she knows what she is doing, so I chose a good partner. Right now I am learning about arguments, good and bad arguments. It is very interesting because of the way my teacher.. teaches! It is going to be fun.
Had a really good time walking around with this one person that really knows how to make me smile. I am very happy with the way things are going, "and when we kick it we have nothing but fun." More adventures to come!
My last class I met someone because she knew my friend trying to add. My friend was not able to get into the class but I still know someone because of her so it's all good. Things are a lot better when you know someone else in the class because you will always have at least one partner for group work, and you have someone to talk to.

Late night phone calls...
are the best =]. I am a good listener!

Attention Deficit Disorder...
I don't think I have it because I am able to focus on something and not be distracted, at least not easily. While telling a story, the person who is supposedly listening will all of a sudden point out something that has NOTHING to do with the matters at hand. Is what I am saying not as interesting as the weird shape the cloud is in the sky or if their are letters on a building that match my initials? Okay the second one is pretty interesting but can it wait!? It also happens when the other person is talking, not just when it is me so that makes me feel better. They will be talking and all of a sudden forget what they say and change the subject to something completely off topic or just plain silly. Haha but really I find it funny and I don't make a big deal out of it.